Diary Entry

 

Rough SolCycle in the Employo-Pod.

My UBC outlet is killing me

Prefrontals throbbing from running SimulLoad too hot;

Medibot almost had to do a brain-wipe.

Settled for Cut n’ Paste instead,

Reupped my left hemi

With some old Mem-ber-Mees

From last MesoSol, and

Sent me back to my StimChamber,

Endorphos in freefall.

I gotta unplug.

Flip open my GateWay.

With my illuminaterz preset to Twilight,

My Viddiators take a MilliChron or two to adjust.

MoodYouLator announces  “FEELINGS OF SELF-INEFFICACY MIXED WITH EMPLOYO-RELATED HOSTILITY”

No shit.

So I set the SeriToner to Insta-Grat.

And kick back for some soothing AutoStim.

That’s not doing it, so I crank it all the way up to MegaMe.

Feel the familiar rush of OmniPretense

Coursing through my CirculoTubes.

Couple of deep, soothing Oh-Two-Fills, feels like heaven.

MoodYouLator confirms it: “PLEASANT, THOUGH PROBABLY DELUDED, FEELINGS OF EMPOWERMENT AND OPTIMISM.”

DopaSpike, level 4.

Check my SolTracker,

Still have a good eight-to-ten ChronoBits left till the Debitor starts docking me EconoBitz,

So I activate my Girl8 Pleasure Unit.

But then my WearEver Screen starts feeding me those fucking prompts:

“Coquettish” or “Domineering”?

“Human” or “R-12 Enhanced”?

“Two breasts or seven”?

DO I HAVE TO DECIDE EVERYTHING?

I so need that “Autonomous” upgrade on my pleasure unit.

Not one you want to use all the time, but days like this, you know?

My hand hovers over the ErotoMeter.

Still can’t decide,

And the effects of her Aphrodeez Pheromonic Mist

Are dropping precipitously, if you catch my drift.

My BrainMail pings,

Prompting a Level 2 DopaBump,

I blink twice on Show Message,

But it’s just a UNeedIt for 

A Girl 12.

Endorpho Plunge.

Feels like a neg six, six-five. It’s rough regardless.

And MegaMe on UNAVAIL for another sixteen MilliChrons.

Maybe NootRish will help so I wash down a ReelFud Cap

With some HydrEight and feel much better.

Right: Unplug.

Totally unplug.

That’s what I need to do.

Like, all the way.

I look around: could I do it?

Could I live the life of a NonMod?

Like those hippies in NeighborUnit 96-F?

Word is those guys don’t even use a HotBod Modulator when they’re having Peen-Vadge. 

Ugh. Can’t contemplate that.

So I press NaturoSoothe on my Enviro Unit

And for a few moments, enjoy the calming tranquility of an Arbor-Land, pine scent and all.

Unfortch before long the UNeedIts start popping up on the arbors,

And Girl 12s—

Blondes, brunettes, redheads,

Start flocking all around me

Cooing UPGRADE NOW!

DOUBLE BLINK ON ME NOW!

All sounding just like Mrs. Klobotnik, my level-five upgrado-Bot (who was super hot!). Sends my levels on a roller coaster:

DopaSpike, level eight, Endorpho-Plunge, level nine-five, DopaSpike level 4. Then EndorphoNadir, deep in the red.

MoodYouLator screams “DEEP SEEDED GUILT ROOTED IN CHILDHOOD MEMBERMEES.” 

Have to power it down.

Power all the way down.

So I hook the DreamScape Electrodes to my temples

Shut my eyes, and for the prescribed seven to eight

ChronoBits, and I just float, weightless and free.

Maybe this is what the NonMods feel.

I could be anywhere—

Taking wing in a FlightSim,

Enjoying soft, white GranUDust and AquaFluxes in a Vaca-Scape,

Sipping FermentaGrape and nibbling Pesc-Ovas in a SenSuoSphere—anywhere.

It was exactly what I needed.